Oops!

2018 already! I knew I hadn't written anything here for a while, but nothing since May?

So ... where did 2017 go?

The biggest change over the last few months is that M has a new job, rather to his own surprise. He had been semi-retired and doing some irregular freelance work for the last couple of years, but following a conversation with a friend who was planning to join the ambulance service as a 111 call handler he decided it was something he would like to try. He applied, was accepted, started training in September and is now a fully fledged call handler on a part time basis - he works just two six-hour shifts a week, which although they are mainly at weekends seem to be fitting in with the rest of our lives pretty well. It also leaves him time to carry on as a freelancer whenever work comes along. 

If you are not familiar with the 111 service, according to the NHS website "111 is the NHS non-emergency number. It's fast, easy and free. Call 111 and speak to a highly trained adviser, supported by healthcare professionals. They will ask you a series of questions to assess your symptoms and immediately direct you to the best medical care for you" - this could be an out-of-hours clinic, an emergency dentist, a GP visit, a call-back from a doctor, an accident and emergency department or minor injuries unit, and in more serious cases the call handlers send out ambulances. There is more about the service here. After scrambling up a very steep learning curve, M is now settling in to the job and finding it challenging and satisfying in more or less equal measures. After forty years working in financial services, he is still slightly surprised to find himself as working in such a different field.

Life for the rest of us has ticked on much as usual. I am still working two days a week as an archivist, senior daughter is still working hard and enjoying her job, middle daughter is part way through her second year at university, also working hard, and youngest daughter is now in Year 7 at school and hitting the pre-teen stage.

We are still travelling as much as we can manage. M and I celebrated our 25th wedding anniversary with a trip to France in June (worthy of a post in its own right). We spent a week in Weymouth (Dorset) in August, and a couple of days in Amsterdam in October. Plans for this year include a trip to Stockholm later this month and travelling through Switzerland, Austria and the Czech Republic by rail in the summer.

I love new years and new starts and can never resist making resolutions and giving myself challenges. This year I have signed up to two formal challenges:

1.  Veganuary - eating vegan for January. After that, who knows!

2.  Read 100 books for the Goodreads 2018 Challenge - last year I beat my 52 book target by reading (or listening to) 55 books. This year I intend to up my game.

General resolutions (much as usual) are to exercise more and to write more (yes, blog, I am looking at you!)

I hope 2018 will be a good year for you and yours.

Literary Memorials

A couple of weeks ago we enjoyed a meal at a hotel in the south Buckinghamshire town of Beaconsfield, for which two or our daughters gave us a voucher as a combined birthday present for M and Mother's Day present for me. As we were not eating until late afternoon we had time to explore the town beforehand. To give ourselves a focus for our stroll we went in search of memorials to two well known, but very different, literary characters connected with the town.

The first part of our walk took us to through the Old Town to the cemetery in search for the grave of one of the Titans of early 20th century Catholic and Christian literature, Gilbert Keith Chesterton.

Wikimedia (public domain)

Chesterton lived in Beaconsfield from 1909 until his death in 1936. He was received into the Catholic Church there (in a temporary building used before the existing Church was built) and buried in the Catholic section of the cemetery. His grave was easy to find, not far from the entrance. 

I tried to take close up of the inscription, not very successfully. I think if you zoom in it is just about legible.

Two years after Chesterton's death the prolific children's author Enid Blyton moved to Beaconsfield, where she lived for nearly thirty years, although she died in a nursing home in Hampstead and was buried in North London. For nearly fifty years there was nothing to commemorate her in the town where she had lived for so long, but three years ago a memorial plaque was put up in front of Beaconsfield Town Hall. 

Enid Blyton's books were once considered quite controversial. On the one hand, children loved them and many children who would not otherwise have bothered with books read them avidly; on the other hand, their simplistic style and limited vocabulary turned many teachers, librarians and parents against them, with some libraries refusing to stock the books. My mother fell into the latter category, so I missed out on the Secret Seven and Famous Five as a child, though I remember reading some of her school stories, probably while I was at school myself. For some reason Mum didn't object to the Noddy books, maybe because they were aimed at younger children. Noddy and Big Ears, the most instantly recognisable of her characters, were featured on the Beaconsfield memorial. 

I wonder what Chesterton would have made of Noddy? 

52 Books in 52 Weeks: #1 - #5

Not only have I got back into the habit of reading regularly, I have been keeping track of my reading on Goodreads. Most of the books are "real" paper, print on page not screen books, but there have also been a few e-books and audio books - I have an Audible subscription and listen in the car, mainly during my 45 to 50 minute commute. I also wanted record them here with some comments, but eighteen books in I am a bit behind! Here are the first five:

#1 Longitude: the True Story of a Lone Genius Who Solved the Greatest Scientific Problem of His Time (Dava Sobel). This had been on my bookshelf for years waiting to be read. It tells the story of John Harrison, who designing timepieces sufficiently accurate to allow sailors to calculate their longitude, solving the great problem of navigation which had led to numerous marine catastrophes. He spent forty years building his chronometers and succeeded despite the best efforts of leading lights of the scientific establishment to hinder him. Well researched, well written and an interesting read. (4 stars)

#2 The Magician's Nephew (C.S.Lewis, Audiobook). I downloaded this originally for small daughter to listen to in the car, but as a lover of all things Narnia ended up listening to it myself on the way to work. Often my audiobooks are heavier stuff, so a lighter book to start the new year was good. Narrated by Kenneth Branagh. What's not to like! (5 stars)

#3 The Year of Living Danishly: My Twelve Months Unearthing the Secrets of the World's Happiest Country (Helen Russell. eBook). We visited Denmark very briefly last year, my first time in Scandinavia, and this had been on my to-read list since then. Denmark is cold and dark for a large part of the year. It also has a high standard of living, the security of a comprehensive welfare state, a love of all things hygge (roughly translates as cosy / cosiness), and a generally common sense approach to life. The book certainly made living in Denmark sound tempting. (4 stars)

#4 A History of Britain in 21 Women (Jenni Murray. Audiobook). Jenni Murray is a well known presenter on BBC radio, who chose her selection of women based on their contribution to different aspects of British society, ranging from Queens and politicians to authors, scientists, classical composer Ethel Smyth, and even the fashion icon of the Sixties, Mary Quant. I'm sure no two people would pick the same women and I found some more interesting than others, but overall a good listen. (4 stars)

#5 The Invisible Library (Genevieve Cogman). I had seen this recommended somewhere - maybe on Facebook? - and loved the premise of a fantasy series based on a Library which searches across the spectrum of known worlds for books. In fact, not just any Library, but the Library. In this first book librarian Irene and her assistant Kai are sent on a mission to an alternate London. The book features dragons, chaos driven "fae", a magical Language, a rogue librarian, and a Sherlock Holmes character. I loved it and have since read the next two books in the series. The fourth is due for publication later this year. (5 stars)

Words. Again.

Back at the end of 2015 I posted about the words I had highlighted on a doodled mind-map of how I wanted to prioritise my time. I still have the mind-map, front and centre under the heading Big Picture on the Trello board on which I attempt to organise my life. The words are just as relevant now as they were when I first drew the mind-map two years ago and it seems a good time to do a stock take and look at how I am doing ...

Margin - working part time instead of full time has been the key to giving myself margin. It took me a little while to wind down and learn to just "be", but these days there is margin in my life and time to spend just puttering. The downside is that puttering time easily becomes screen time and I get sucked into a social media and Google vortex. Having time to waste is a good thing to a point, in that it is truly downtime; mindlessly looking at pictures of sleeping dogs or reading click-bait is not good.

Declutter - the stuff is going. Slowly. It still feels as though there is a lot more to do, but I hope that in another year or so I may feel that the clutter monster is, if not defeated, at least definitiely on the losing side. 

Family - again, working part time has definitely meant more time for my family. M and I now have free time together during the week while our youngest daughter is at school, and I have far more energy to do things with her at weekends and in school holidays.  Time spent with her older sisters tends to be more a matter of their schedule than mine, and it is good that I have more flexibility to fit round their busy lives. 

Friends - I am still not as good at organising myself to get together with friends as I should be, but at least I now have the energy and time to make it much easier. 

Music - more time, more music, though as I find it hard to resist the temptation to add in extras I probably end up doing more than I should. I hoped that with more time I would get round to taking some lessons, but it hasn't happened.  

Read - yes! finally! I said that I struggled to get into the habit of reading, but this year I think I have cracked it. I challenged myself on GoodReads to read 52 books this year and so far I am keeping up - a third of the year and 17 books in. One thing that has helped me to read more is starting the day by picking up a book and reading in bed for a while before getting up, rather than turning on my iPad and catching up on Facebook ... and the news ... and a bit of Twitter ... and whatever else I click through. There are still days where social media wins, but most days I read a book. I have come to the conclusion that reading "real" books works better for me than ebooks. Once I step away from a screen I am more inclined to stay away from it. 

Create - not much writing done lately, but I have the possibility of a major project on the horizon. I said I wanted to bake more, but it hasn't happened. This year's new creative outlet has been making bobbin lace, which I am finding slow but satisfying. 

Yoga - I know yoga still makes me feel better but I struggle to do it regularly, particularly since I gave up gym membership and can no longer take classes there. I have been doing classes at a yoga studio rather erratically, but have signed up for a new local weekly classes which are starting at the end of the month.

Outdoors - M and I have been walking more or less regularly since the beginning of last year, trying to get out at least once a week. It tends not to happen in school holidays and sometimes life gets in the way, but it has definitely become a priority for us. 

Breathe - still trying to just breathe! My Apple Watch reminds me to breathe, but I am afraid I usually ignore it.  

Capsule Wardrobes

I keep reading minimalist blogs and books in an attempt to inspire me to declutter - I am laughably far from minimalism, but it does help me to be a little more ruthless in tackling the clutter monster. One of the clutter zones I really need to deal with is clothing. I am not a dressy person, yet I still have far more clothes than I either want or need. Even so I waste time looking for things to wear because I can't find items that go together, or trying things then deciding they don't fit properly or feel comfortable. The minimalist blogs suggest I need a capsule wardrobe - a limited number of items which mix and match and can be dressed up and down.

The whole idea of a capsule wardrobe is daunting for me as it seems to require a much stronger sense of  personal style than I have. I am not a natural when it comes to clothes, though over the years I have at least learned some things about what works for me and what doesn't.  So how does a non-stylish person come up with a capsule wardrobe? I am trying to think about what are the items that I wear frequently and why. Last week I went through most of my wardrobe, evicted some clothes I never use and boxed up a lot more. I tried to leave the things I have been wearing most often recently, together with a few other items I thought might go with them.

A week into my Reduced Wardrobe experiment I have already discovered that some of the items I kept just don't work and need to go, and I have started wearing a couple of things that I had either forgotten about or for some reason just never worn.  I have also realised that there are gaps in the Reduced Wardrobe. A pair of black ankle boots with a medium heel would be useful, to replace the pair I haven't worn for over a year because (a) they are the wrong shape and don't work with the clothes I want to wear them with, and (b) they leak! I could also do with a smart/casual pair of blue jeans. Without any conscious effort, I seem to have ended up with a colour palette of sorts - black / grey/ burgundy, and navy / natural.  I still have some more stuff to go through, and I will also need to dig out a few summer clothes in the hope that we may eventually get some warmer weather. Maybe I should aim to move on from a Reduced Wardrobe to a capsule wardrobe for the summer months?

100 Essentials: #2 Glasses

I am still thinking about my "essentials".  I am not really counting or even listing, but I am becoming more aware of what is just "stuff" and what items truly fill a need. I am also thinking more about trying to make sure where I can that the essentials are things that are pleasant to use. After twenty four years in this house and twenty two years of parenting a lot of our stuff had seen much better days; over the last year or two we have been working on a much needed "reboot" of our house, redecorating, repairing and replacing as necessary. Glassware has been on our list of the things we would like to replace for a while. We had the remains of a dated set of uninspiring crystal glassware bought thirty years ago and reduced over the years by breakages, a few good quality but mismatched glasses, some ugly tumblers for daily use (in two sizes) bought because they were cheap and dishwasher proof, and various other odds and sods.

Inspired by Francine Jay I suggested we should try to find a single style of glass that could be used for pretty much anything. Among our hotchpotch of glassware there were two tumblers which came as part of a Baileys Irish Cream gift set. M and I both liked the shape and feel of these tumblers and decided to try to buy some as similar to the Baileys glasses as possible. We came up with these from Marks and Spencer's barrel range:

They are slightly larger and heavier than the Baileys glasses, but pretty close. Francine Jay used a  single "essential" glass for everything, including wine. We decided we weren't ready to go that far and still wanted separate wine glasses, so we bought some from the same range. We liked the non-traditional shape and they feel nice to hold:

We got rid of most of the old glassware. We did keep some - the good quality items and a few of the oddments that one or other of us particularly liked - but these are the two glasses that are on my "essential" list.

If This is a Man

One of the pieces of information we discovered during our trip to Trieste last month was that M's uncle Joachim was sent to Auschwitz on the same transport as the Italian author Primo Levi, who chronicled his experiences in detail in If This is a Man, deservedly considered one of the most important, if not the most important pieces of literature about the Holocaust. Like Primo Levi, Joachim was one of the very few survivors from that transport, and they were both among those in Auschwitz until the bitter end when it was liberated by the Russian army in January 1945. I have just read If This is a Man because it felt important to me to understand what Joachim experienced. This is the review I posted on Goodreads:

I read this book on two levels. Firstly as Primo Levi's extraordinary account, written with piercing clarity, of the year he spent in the squalor, deprivation and horror that was the slave labour camp of Buna-Monowitz, also known as Auschwitz III. Secondly on a personal level as an account of the experiences of my husband's uncle, Joachim, who was sent from the Fossoli camp in Italy to Monowitz in the same transport as Levi, and was one of the tiny handful of survivors from that transport. Again like Levi, it appears he was one of the prisoners who stayed at Monowitz to the bitter end; presumably he was also one of the inmates of the infirmary who were left to their own ten days of Hell but were spared the death march on which all the healthy prisoners were dispatched ahead of the arrival of the Russian army. While every prisoner would have experienced the horrors of the camp in their own way and (for the fortunate few) must have found their own individual means to survive, the realities of arrival, of day-to-day life, and of the dreadful last few days after the Germans left were the same for all. The indignities, the starvation, the cold, the near presence of death, would have been the same for Joachim as they were for Levi. Tragically although he survived Auschwitz, Joachim never recovered his health and died in 1947 aged just 38. Distance and sickness meant he never saw his family again. Primo Levi wanted the world to hear his story; in telling it he has allowed me to hear Joachim's, so long after it took place, and in hearing it to honour his memory.

Since finishing the book at the weekend it has been much on my mind. I notice how often I complain that I am "hungry', then acknowledge to myself just how far away I am from the experience of real hunger, which for Primo Levi and the other inmates of Monowitz was extreme and sustained for the entire year they were in the camp. I have also been wondering how Joachim managed to survive. From Levi's telling, the survivors pretty much without exception found some way to "organise" some kind of advantage that left them a bit less cold, hungry and friendless than the majority. Levi's survival was in part due to the generosity of an Italian civilian working at the Buna factory who gave him extra soup, and his background as a chemist which earned him an indoor job in a laboratory during the winter of 1944/5. My guess is that Joachim was in some way able to benefit from his linguistic skills as a native German speaker; the inability to understand German seems to have been a positive disadvantage, and there would surely have been ways he could have capitalised on his knowledge of the official language of the camp.

I find reading about the Holocaust a hard thing - how could it not be? - but while this book was difficult it was also the work of a magnificent writer, a necessary and cathartic exposition of a terrible and utterly unnecessary evil. It is the most important book I have read in a long time.